Self-esteem is certainly a huge issue for me, especially lately. However, in the past, when I've done work on my self-esteem, my mood tends to swing aggressively to the other side. I tend to think I'm invincible (socially, anyway), I'm the hottest woman in the world (right now I feel below average, depending on which part of London I'm standing in at any given time), and everyone
I would like to continue working with M so that this issue doesn't come up. Near the end of the last session, I tried to get a solid answer out of her regarding her fees, and she kept saying "we'll talk about that after the EAP runs out. Let's just focus on your mental health right now." It didn't bother me at the time, but that's not a fucking answer. I can't rearrange my budget for a new apartment with that in mind. Although it's not an answer, I'm now certain she's out of my price range. It may be rude, but I may have to ask her if she can recommend someone cheaper. When I first started talking to her, I made it clear that I was trying to build up a network of help. If my conversations with her don't lead to conversations with others, I know I will be frustrated.
Overall, it seems to me that as long as your not drawing attention to yourself or hurting others, the availability of mental health care isn't all that impressive. Shouldn't we be working on prevention rather than rescue?